I’m starting to fade
Into the light,
Orbs of me drift
Into the night.
I find myself
Amongst the stars,
Shooting brightly
But not that far.
I’m in your sight
Not in your reach,
Spreading magic
In what I teach.
I’m floating high
In addictive lust,
Scattering myself
Into stardust.
K
via Stardust
I wrote the labyrinth back in 2017 and decided it was time for an update with my 2020 presepective of life.
I close my eyes & lucid dream
Only to ascend into golden streams,
A maze of paths & endless patterns
So many spirals, how did this happen?
I drift around in all this awe
With hidden knowledge, I can’t ignore
Removing the blocks, lifting the veil
Holy fuck ‘we are the Holy grail’
This nothingness is a lot to apprehend
My mind explodes as I transcend,
Europia grabs hold & I’m not going lie
I’m in sync with all, I can almost fly.
Frequency surges and codes appears
Spreading the light, everything is clear
We’ll share our love to open this door
And face a beauty like never before.
Never wished to become a teacher
With ‘love & balance’ to every creature
Open your mind & escape this World
Lose the ego, and then rebuild.
At one with all, I’m fully aware
Consiousness has stripped me bare,
I lost my mind somewhere in Space
The Universe exposed my truest face.
With a system drilled into our heads
Designed to keep the mind fed,
We’re to break away and finally be free
It’s time to awaken, you are the key.
K
Fix your body
Against my heart,
Let your hands wander
Writing passion
With thoughts of art.
Design my dreams
Caress my flaws,
Let my body sync
In time with yours.
Leave your love
Pressed on my lips,
Thrust your desire
Through my hips.
Breathe in my hope
Structure my fears,
Leave your mark
As my soul engineer.
via Soul engineer
I’m not perfect
Just perfectly flawed,
With broken edges
That are curved & broad.
I’ve been ripped apart
Only to be stitched,
Sewn with resilience
And a little added bitch.
I’m a cocktail of disaster
A messed up recipe,
With a teaspoon of spice
And a dash of profanity.
I’m a hurricane
So beautiful to view,
Just not a storm
To get sucked into.
With a life forged
Full of rejection
I became perfect
A perfect imperfection
K
Colours can bleed
Colours can cry,
They fade away
But they never die.
There’s dark & light
Purple or golden,
Associated with life
& different emotion.
Choose a colour
To match your soul,
Would it be vibrant
Or as black as coal?
Mix the colours
That others will see,
Show them the spectrum
Of what you can be.
K
via Spectrum
I followed my dreams
They led me to you,
Over the dark forest
Beyond the castle view.
When I asked for a sign
It spelled out my name,
Burning into my mind
Like fire to a flame.
When I searched for love
I was handed a mirror,
I needed to love myself
To see things clearer.
When I chased freedom
I lost touch with reality,
Shaping myself was vital
Discovery was the key.
The answers appeared
Knowledge had to be earned.
I found myself embedded
In the lessons I had learned.
K
It’s ok to cry when you need to.
Rainbows can’t be created by light alone,
Sometimes the clouds have to cry,
To create something beautiful.
K
via Beauty in pain
The alphabet fluctuates
From letters to emotion,
As we embed our passions
On pages forever frozen.
We string text together
And give it a meaning,
Then we open our souls
To a dictionary of feelings.
Rhymes become inked
With broken hearts,
For the bleeding poetry
To be called art.
Words become characters
As we make them whole,
We fill letters with ideas
And words with soul.
K
I cast my eyes
Beneath the veil,
And lifted the truth
Of the forbidden grail.
Travelling through time
On a magical carpet ride,
Watching the Planets form
And the asteroids collide.
Like Alice in wonderland
My sanity has ended,
As I escaped this realm
With a soul transcended.
K
K
We prepare ourselves
For our next life,
With tests and trials
That we barely survive.
Our kindness & warmth
Is to lead the way,
And open the gates
To a brand new day.
Consciousness awakes
Through darkness & light,
But we can’t be afraid
By the creaks in the night.
This Planet is a gift
We should never ignore,
It leads us down a path
Of conscious doors.
When your mind opens
Your eyes will follow,
Don’t be lost in a world
That became so shallow.
Balance is the key
As we stand in the middle,
Decrypting the code
Of the Universe’s riddle.
K
I close my eyes & I begin to dream
Only to be awoken by echoing screams,
A maze of paths & endless patterns
“Holy fuck” how did this happen?
I drift around there’s no way out
Barely can see I panic & shout,
Menacing roars from far ahead
It knows I’m here & it needs to be fed.
I run around, it’s a lot to apprehend
Paths lead to nowhere except dead ends,
The pattern is complex & I’m not going lie
I’m scared I’m lost & I don’t want to die.
Instincts surge and logic appears
I’ll get to the centre, everything is clear,
I need to find a key to open this door
With the courage to face a Minotaur.
Starting to wish I listened to my teacher
How did Theseus kill this creature?
No time to think the screams draw closer,
I stumble & fall, into the Minotaur’s enclosure
I can feel it with me I’m fully aware
It’s sizing me up I feel its stare,
Out of the shadows it crowds my space
I nearly collapsed it has the same face.
Everything is clear the maze is in my head
The fear I carry keeps the monster fed,
I’m to face myself if I want to be free
I’m the only one that’s holding the key.
K
via The labyrinth
Reality is beautifully unique
A complicated suprise,
No star looks the same
Through different eyes.
We walk down our paths
Hand in hand my friend,
Taking different journeys
We’ll all meet in the end.
What is this word ‘normal’
They try & force us to be,
How can we all be the same
In these individual realities.
We are written into one story
Living in seperate stages,
Disconnected by perspective
But connected by the pages.
K
I’ve fallen through worlds
That are in my mind,
Landed on earth
With a purpose to find.
Layers of mistake
Masked in smiles,
I fell for a world
That put me on trial.
So many storms
Where do I start?
Lightening & thunder
Appeared in my heart.
Like the planet
Thoughts orbit around,
Yet gravity forbids me
To leave this ground.
K
via Orbiting
A recent doodle to share with you all.
K
Born into a land
Forgotten by time,
Days are nights
The stars don’t align.
Fell out of sync
Into another zone,
A place abandoned
Which I call my home.
I’m ahead of myself
Or I was left behind,
Orbiting the outside
Of my very mind.
Days become years
Decades are legends,
Minutes are hours
Forever is a second.
K
via Sync
Music is my emotion
A second heartbeat,
The notes feel like passion
The words taste bittersweet.
Travelling through my ears
Connecting to my veins,
The rhythm fuses my blood
The melody numbs the pain.
It’s a language we all understand
The magic ignites deep inside,
Like colours to a spectrum
Exploding when beats collide.
Note by note I find soul
Pitched in the waves of time,
Music became my home
In a soul of endless rhyme.
K
I’m not afraid
To shout,
I’m not afraid
To sing,
I was never
Afraid of
Yesterday,
Or what
Tomorrow
Will bring.
I’m not afraid
To dream,
I’m not afraid
To fail,
I was never
Afraid to
Write,
The darkest
Fairytale.
I’m not afraid
To live,
I’m not afraid
To die,
I’ve never been
Afraid
Of saying
Goodbye.
K
via Never afraid…
My mind is dreadful
It’s a terrible place,
Inked onto paper
With a beautiful face.
Sprayed with colour
Which doesn’t last,
Saturated in words
Lost in the contrast.
It is a masterpiece
This bleeding heart
Vibrant and poise
Sculpturing art.
Deadly beautiful
Like Jekyll & Hyde,
One piece of art
Two different sides.
K
via Faces of art
I’ll play the lead
In your dirty book,
Feel the sensation
Off this mind fuck.
You can see me here
Inbetween the lines,
I’m behind the cover
On page sixty nine.
Read each verse
To feel me within,
This isn’t a love story
It’s a book of sin.
I will tease you
On every cliffhanger,
Strip me bare
In every chapter.
You’ll lick your lips
When you read,
Because ‘I want’
becomes ‘I need’
K
via Mind fuck
Let’s dance together
One last night,
I’ll follow your rhythm
As you hold me tight.
I’ll take in your scent
As I feel you breathe,
We’ll sway into the night
Before I have to leave.
Our hearts will beat
In tune together,
When souls merge
We’ll dance forever.
If we don’t meet again
That would be fine,
Memories will freeze
In the heart of time.
via Heart of time
I’m questioning my sanity
The unicorn in the bathroom,
Isn’t giving me a sense of reality.
Pixies are flying around my head
As I’m reading bedtime stories,
To the monsters under my bed.
I asked Peter to fly me to Neverland
But I fell down the rabbit hole,
To be a lost girl in wonderland.
A shapeshifter without a host
Or about as transparent,
As a friendly ghost.
I put the looney in tunes
My life is like road runner,
Or a set of cat & mouse cartoons.
I’m drinking with the grim reaper
He’s the life of the party,
I’m a different type of creature.
I’ll never be a fairy and fly free
But I’ll always be this strange,
So who wants to be like me.
K
via Freakily sane …
He came out of nowhere
Like a gust of wind,
Blowing me over
Until my body was pinned.
The ocean in his eyes
Called me to the shore,
Drowning me in his iris
Into the depth of his core.
The electricity between us
Created a surge of power
Flashing through the sky
He is my meteor shower.
Like the Moon orbiting earth
In the beauty of the night,
He’s spinning around me
As my own satellite.
K
via My satellite
Walking through a room
They caught each others eyes,
Gravity pulled them together
As their senses multiplied.
In a single moment
Time became frozen,
Nobody else existed
In all of the commotion.
Chemistry was in the air
Particles filled with tension,
The atmosphere sucked them away
To another dimension.
When they woke this morning
These strangers didn’t realise,
Souls would be merging
In a magical paradise.
Hearts would beat as one
As all the stars aligned,
They’d find home in a stranger
When destinies intertwined.
K
via Paths collide..
I’d fracture my bones
To defend yours,
I’d fight in battles
To protect you from wars.
I’d take your pain
And all your tears
I’d die a million times
Just to face your fears.
I’d break my heart
So yours wouldn’t shatter,
I’d give you the world
If it made you happier.
I’d risk everything & more
Just to see you smile
You make living
Worth fighting for.
K
via I would…
I am very similar
To my porcelain skin,
Smooth on the surface
Yet hollow within.
If you look closely
You can trace the tracks,
Of this worn exterior
That has started to crack.
I’m strong & sturdy
Yet a fragile little thing,
My strength is carried
On my broken wings.
Just one last drop
I will fail to exist,
As history will scatter
Into a porcelain mist.
K
via Porcelain
If the world was ending
Would you be there,
I’d be standing on a roof
Shooting a flare.
Would you race by my side
To wipe away the tears,
Holding me in your arms
As we faced our final fears.
When we take our last breaths
Could you look me in the eye,
Tell me everything would be okay
Knowing our dreams would die,
Tomorrow will be ashes
Yesterday would be gone,
No more walks on the beach
Or dusk until dawns.
But in our final moments
I know that I will be okay,
As you’d be there beside me
Which no force could take away.
K
Colours can bleed
Colours can cry,
They fade away
But they never die.
There’s dark & light
Purple or golden,
Associated with life
& different emotions.
Choose a colour
To match your soul,
Would it be vibrant
Or as black as coal.
Mix the colours
That others will see
Show them the spectrum
Of what you can be.
K
via Spectrum
As I stand here
On this empty street,
Black snow falls
It’s a sign of defeat.
There is no hope
I can’t see any flares,
This feels like hatred
It looks like despair.
Flakes land on me
They drip with pain,
From ashes to blood
Leaving their stain.
The fantasy we’ve lived
Drowns into insanity,
As this darkness steals
The last pieces of humanity.
K
via Black snow
Shoot me down
With bows & arrows,
My demons will rise
To haunt your shadows.
Fire your cannons
Release your weapons,
Witness the day I open
All hells heavens.
Beware if you curse me
With your deadly plagues,
This queen of hearts
Is also the queen of spades.
I have flames inside me
With a lethal spark,
I’ve walked through hell
I’m not afraid of the dark.
Deafen me with thunder
Hit me with lightening,
This one women army
Isn’t afraid of dying.
K
via Hells heavens
I don’t feel pleased
Or even desired,
There’s no passion
I am not inspired
I need excitement
The rush of adrenaline,
I am nothing more
Than a bored specimen.
As the world ticks
And steals my tocks,
I’m swimming in a sea
With a pocket of rocks.
This is my addiction
With veins of greed,
Give me an adventure
I need to feed.
K
via Bored specimen
You can’t kill me, I’m already dead. I drowned in creativity trying to reach the abyss of my imagination. Only to realise I was dreaming in a lost reality.
K
via Arcadia
It’s ok to cry when you need to
Rainbows can’t be created by light alone,
Sometimes the clouds have to cry
To create something beautiful.
K
I’m writing my life
On a Celestial page,
Where time doesn’t exist
It’s just an illusion of age.
There is an inbetween
I fell through the gap,
I asked the abyss to help
And it lead me into a trap.
There’s silence in sound here
Black and white in colour,
The spectrums merge
With dimensions to discover.
The chronicle of events
I stand here touching,
And it all makes sense
Life equates to nothing.
K
There are rooms
in my mind,
If you open the doors
Don’t be afraid
Of what you’ll find.
Some are beautiful
Others you’ll fear,
If they’re dark
I bring flowers here.
Don’t go in the closets
They can get messy,
Find the secret rooms
There’s not that many.
You don’t need an invite
There is no key,
It’s an open maze
To experience me.
K
via Maze runner
Lets straighten things out
On crispy white sheets,
It’s been a long time coming
We’re in need of a treat.
Draw the curtains
We’ll be here for weeks,
Learning each others bodies
And the way they speak.
Don’t hold back
Lock the door,
My body screams for you,
I’m in need of more.
Like two magnets,
We face the attraction
Drawing each other closer
For immense satisfaction.
K
Don’t try & understand who I am
Hardwired like a programme,
Hidden coding behind the screen
So you won’t see a faulty machine.
Like all machines there’s a switch
To turn off & on when I feel a glitch,
People ignore what’s beyond the surface
Steel, memories, & a short circuit.
Woken to do the tasks in hand
Processing data for my brain to expand,
And I’ll stick a smile on the display
So you won’t notice what’s locked away.
A reboot won’t help it’s internal damage
But I can still function & still manage,
Quite an advanced little machine
Artificial intelligence that can’t be seen.
K
via Hardwired…
He had always protected me
But for just one moment,
I witnessed his pain & vulnerability.
He held back his hurt and tears
I glanced for a second more,
Before I held him in my arms
And whispered,
How many times did you need me
And I wasn’t there?
Life is our lover
The mistress in the affair,
Fucking us daily
It’s stripping us bare.
Playing mind games
We jump to its feet,
Feeding us seduction
To keep us sweet.
We bow down
To all the highs & lows,
Give and take
All the laughs & blows.
We can’t end the affair
It’s too addictive,
Because life itself
Is a beautiful sickness.
– K
When she falls tell them,
She walked with giants
A fierce warrior,
That overruled the tyrants.
A women who solved
The labyrinths maze,
And stood up to Zeus
When he asked for praise.
With an army of Titans
From both heaven & hell
This was no goddess
Just a fallen Angel.
Leading warriors into war
They salvaged power
But she hated what she saw.
She destroyed her sword
And gave up command
Running far & fast
Away from this land.
Taking the evil she once released,
She boxed it up for Pandora
To never be unleashed.
via Pandora’s box..
I’m starting to fade
Into the light,
Orbs of me drift
Into the night.
I find myself
Amongst the stars,
Shooting brightly
But not that far.
I’m in your sight
Not in your reach,
Spreading magic
In what I teach.
I’m floating high
In addictive lust,
Scattering myself
Into stardust.
via Stardust
A couple of pictures I’ve taken of the sunsets recently with added filters.
I drift away into
Arcadian dreams,
Where castles await
The Kings and Queens.
Many species
Have settled here,
& within a blink of an eye
They all appear.
Through Elvish lands
Are Celestial teachers
Spreading wisdom
To all the creatures.
As Valerians protect
And Valkaries preserve,
There’s a balance of respect
Every Planet deserves
K
I saw the colours
The spectrum In your eyes,
And I painted them red
As red as the burning skies.
I witnessed the light
Shining through your soul,
I painted it black
As black as coal.
I felt the goodness
In your heart,
I shunned it away
As the darkest art.
I touched the pain
In your tears,
I ignored the voices
Screaming through my ears.
I carried the burden
You carried around,
I turned it into lightening
Striking the ground.
I felt you die
A thousand times,
You felt me fall
Inbetween the lines.
We observed the world
Breakout into plagues
And our souls drowned
Into an abyss of shades.
K
People think they know me
Yet I’m a stranger at best,
They don’t see the suffering
When my minds at rest.
I became addicted to worlds
Created by my mind,
Stringing pieces together
With theories I’d grind.
How do I tell them
I created my own religion,
And my thoughts are based
Souly on fiction.
My mind disappeared
To the structure of the universe,
Until I realised I was living
In an unsolvable curse.
I am lost in this world
Which they don’t understand,
My mind has retired
To a forbidden lands.
K
Paper can’t handle
The ink that I spill,
There’s a curse hidden
Behind my quill.
Letters turn into acid
Paper into ash,
The alphabet cries
When emotions clash.
My writing is messy
There is no design,
I don’t fix in any box
Or inbetween the lines.
When it comes to art
You must give insanity,
As poetic truths
Are inked with agony.
via Inking agony
A brilliant poem below to be appricaited by Aman Dwivedi.
If you would like to contact the poet please do so by emailing amangeek97@gmail.com
I was struck by an arrow
A love stricken arrow,
Gazing down a lonely path
So dark and narrow.
I feel him at the end
His heart beating for mine,
I’m drowning in an hourglass
Swimming in the sands of time.
We have never connected
Yet I feel him inside,
Then he’s lost to memories
And a part of me dies.
It’s the universe dividing us
As we will never be close,
Yet I see him in my thoughts
And the universe slows.
Maybe we are past lovers
Searching the world together
Or maybe we’re forgotten souls
That lost each other forever.
K
via Dividing
See the world for how it is, not for how you want it to be.
K
You can’t kill me, I’m already dead. I drowned in creativity trying to reach the abyss of my imagination. Only to realise I was dreaming in a lost reality.
K
My life is cursed
Or am I the cure,
My body aches
For so much more.
Was I created
By mistake,
Is there a sign
Or a path to take.
Is anyone else there?
Or I am too blind,
Living in Braille
With colour to find.
I might be lost
Or am I home,
Nothing is certain
When you ache alone.
K
The pieces are there
To merge together,
I’m caged in delusions
Which seem like forever.
The symbols appear
As I cross dimensions,
Chasing my insanity
With lots of questions.
There are worlds here
Masked in disguise,
It’s the world we live
That’s masked in lies.
I am losing myself
The deeper I roam,
Yet the closer I crawl
The more It feels like home.
K
Make love to my mind
Go down on my thoughts,
Fill my imagination
With electric shots.
Fall into my dreams
Tease my perception,
Infect me with words
With a lethal injection.
Present me with lessons
Feed every greedy hole,
Tempt my curious mind
Taste my hungry soul.
Spread your fire
Cover me in passion
Bring more than physical
To an intellectual orgasm.
K
The surreal night sky
Shimmers like a rainbow,
With glimpses of purple
And castles that glow.
Beyond our existence
The moon is possessed,
In an open garden
Where the comets rest.
There’s peace up above
As insignificant as we are,
If compare to the unknown
Of those shooting stars.
K
My imaginary friend
Stole my unicorn,
My pet phoenix
Turned into flames.
The voices in my head
Are ignoring me,
& the boogeyman is drunk
With the monster hiding,
Under my bed.
The mad hatter lost my key
& Neverland has rejected me,
So you can only imagine
What a shit day I’m having.
via Worst day ever…
Darling you might be broken and in pieces,
But a jigsaw never got completed with missing pieces.
I will assemble the puzzle of your history,
And follow your fears into the darkness where your shadow left you.
Not only will I come out with the missing pieces,
I will show you the perfect picture I already see.
In a land of dreams
Time doesn’t bend,
Crossing dimensions
Chasing worlds end.
Follow the secret garden
Down into an abyss,
The silence is deadly
It’s the noise you miss.
Through deathly hollows
Inbetween the gargoyles,
You’ll find the doorways
To a heaven of Royals.
Follow the spectrum
Into a fading night sky,
& merge with dimensions
Hidden behind the eye.
K
Paint pictures
On fractured walls,
Watch the paint drip
As memories fall.
Let’s hide ourselves
Under a veil,
Be blind to a world
Written in brailie.
Open our minds
Not just our hearts,
Humanity is lost
To the history of art.
We can be deaf
We can be blind,
But we can’t navigate
With ignorant minds.
K
A Banshee sings
The Fairies fly,
A Oracle holds
The eye to the sky.
A Goblin steals
A Witch casts,
The Muse influences
All of our paths.
The Ogres scare
A Queen conquers,
Under the bed
Lies the monsters.
As magic soars
And Valerians fly,
Humanity drains
As imagination dies.
K
So many beliefs
In heaven & hell,
Opposites planes
Worlds parallel.
Like a triangle
All sides connect,
People worship
None are perfect.
Heaven is too picky
Hell accepts all,
Even the angels
After they fall.
To burn forever
Or to live a lie,
I’m good & bad
I’ll be more lost
When I die.
I never believed
In black & white
So when I die
I’ll go to the grey
Inbetween the divide.
K
via The grey
Heat of passion
Flares of temptation,
The touch of your leg
With discreet flirtation.
Flutter of your eyes
The ache of my heart,
Trying very hard
Not to fall apart.
A Devilish grin
I will draw you in,
Across the table
I touch your skin.
Cheeky seduction
Tension teasing,
Feeling my heart
Rapidly beating.
Eyes are locked
As my soul strips,
Feeling the resistance
Through my hips.
I’m biting my lip
Controlling the urge,
Anticipating the moment
When our souls will merge.
K
The siren echos
Her seductive tease,
You can hear the calls
Through desperate pleas.
She is intoxicating
Down to the core,
Which your body craves
The depth of more.
Calling you through
Ears of ignorance,
She is absorbing
All your innocence.
Fear for the men
Aboard the ships,
It’s trickery to the senses
The song from her lips.
Her heart has depth
Men have drowned,
It all starts with lust
And a heavenly sound.
K
via Siren call…
I write for you
For the dimples in your flaws,
All the rainbows
Which reflect in your tears.
All the beauty
Shining from your pores,
And for all your love
That blankets me with warmth.
For when I write
I feel us merge together,
When my ink is spoken
They’ll feel our hearts,
And my promise of forever.
K
via Everlasting
I’m the girl,
That falls
In love,
Every night.
Looking up,
Lusting
After the stars,
Captivated by the
Moonlight.
Falling in love,
With everything
Beautiful,
Yet everything,
Unreachable.
K
via Infatuation…
Feel the curves
Of my existence,
Exhale my name
In anticipation,
Taste me
Without any resistance,
Use your tongue
To talk to my flesh,
Conquer me
With your seduction,
Break me down
Into a molecule
absorb all of me,
Be the poetry
To my blank page.
via Inhale me..
I’m not perfect
Just perfectly flawed,
With broken edges
That are curved & broad.
I’ve been ripped apart
Only to be stitched,
Sewn with resilience
And a little added bitch.
I’m a cocktail of disaster
A messed up recipe,
With a teaspoon of spice
And a dash of profanity.
I’m a hurricane
So beautiful to view,
Just not a storm
To get sucked into.
With a life forged
Full of rejection
I became perfect
A perfect imperfection
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| Standard Issued Life on Stardust |
| TheDarkestFairytale on Stardust |
| Standard Issued Life on Stardust |
| Ilah on Stardust |
