The feeling of being, empty & lost
You’ll never understand, the true cost,
Physically & mentally disconnected
Death & happiness, i am not affected.
Having to fake a smile every day
Emotional connections, i can’t portray,
Living by, a social convention
I’m odd, so i live in another dimension,
Fantasies & dreams, into the unknown
I’ve accepted my fate, it’s all I’ve known
This isn’t how I wanted it to be
Why did this shit even happened to me.
People ask why i have not found a man
They wouldn’t understand what i am,
It is easier to push every one close away
I even turn the mirrors away.
Feeling of being part of so much more
But not knowing what to explore,
I walk on the outside & look around
The answers i seek will never be found,
What i would give to feel anything
Emotions, music or the beat when i sing
Constantly feeling numb or neutral,
Feeling normal would be more useful.