As far as I can tell
I’ve already died once,
And I woke up in this hell.
My mind is a deadly disease
I’m not always in control,
When darkness is overtaking me.
The voices don’t drown
I despise this person inside,
So I turn the mirrors around.
It’s like a switch
I go from light to dark,
From angel to bitch.
I’ve walked this life on empty
Filled with secrets & masks,
Surrounded by awful energy.
There’s an illusion in my head
Writing itself into my life,
So I’ll never die when I’m dead.
The rage turns me into stone
Injecting its shadows,
Down into my bones.
It’s screaming to open the door
The sins of this life,
Wrapped around my core.
This mind & body it stole
Because when I wake tomorrow,
I don’t know who will be in control.
K
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I get where you’re at. Cant be nice having the monster in you.
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No I keep feeding it chocolate and fags, not sure what it wants x
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Does it like those things? Ever tried giving it a run or a swim or something. Maybe climb a rock?
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Haha I use to rock climb, and run, I’ve got lazy lately xx
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I bet you were pretty good. Maybe you could go again and see how it feels?
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I tried running again, it didn’t feel good.. felt like I was dying and I only got to the bottom of the road haha x
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I’m with you on running. I find it boring. But i thought climbing might be something you could try again. ☺
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I will eventually , I need some motivation first x
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I know, it’s hard to get it together isn’t it? Stay well though eh? 😃
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A frightening poem.
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Sorry and thank you c
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You’re singing my song.
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Aww no! Well I hope yours is well behaved x
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It is but sometimes I wish it would let loose….I want revenge. LOL
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Haha I know how you feel! I want to let it but it’s safer for everyone to keep it in xx
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I know…but it’s nice to dream now and then…LOL
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Haha yes very true x
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I get the feeling you will never be beaten … your spirit wont allow.
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Exactly it’s a disease and a cure at the same time x
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Phenomenal K
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Thank you lovely x
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My pleasure
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I can relate, dealing with inner demons is not easy.
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No it isn’t and thank you xx
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Dearest Girl, God has given us this Beautiful Earth and this Precious Life, to Enjoy.
What are your doing ? Stop such thoughts racing through your mind!!
There is no “demon” inside you. You have only “GOD” inside you. Be Grateful for what you have in Life, because there are “people” who are praying for what Life you have.
An Empty Mind is a Devil’s Workshop.
The more you think Negative, the more Life for you will become Negative.
You are born in this world for a Purpose. To grow up, to stand on your feet, to be a Mother, to Help people, to Enjoy your talents.
You Die only Once. But You Live Life Everyday.
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No offence I don’t believe in god, and I’m not a pessimist or negative , I’m a realist.. just because I’ve wrote about darkness doesn’t mean there isn’t no positive in my life . And I am grateful I am here today more so than most because I’ve had to survive to be here
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Ok Darling. Hope you learn about the Wonderfulness of God, as time passes.
What I meant was, if you write about darkness, your readers will in someway “feel your words”. Instead, Inspire your Readers. Tell them how to Survive. Motivate them. Remove their Fears.
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Ahh I do, it varies day to day and thank you x
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I couldn’t resist commenting. Well written!
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Thank you
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Powerful and feels like it’s confusing and hard to never know.
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It’s unpredictable x
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Take it one day at a time
I am thinking of getting a Loki tattoo… to recognise the trickster within all of us
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Ahh lovely that’s sounds nice, I want a full back piece of an angel half good half bad x
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Go for it!!
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I could not refrain from commenting. Exceptionally well written!
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I love it, once again. You don’t believe in God? Come on girl, you have to believe in something higher than yourself. You appear to be a Goddess, so their must be a God. Yahweh, Jehovah, Adonai, Elohim…..Call God the Father, the Forse, the Source of Allah, or All Words….. The Master Code of the Cosmos….So many names, but none like Jesus Emanuel Hosanna and El Camino the Kingdom Domain and computer codes and binary language logo’s and l X Z the Kingdom Domain
The letters of recommendation for a New standard of our online education without being hacked and watched is:. I am just wondering who is behind the internet marketing company which specialises in SEO search engine optimization is a laughing stock and ready to go to the Kingdom Domain. I am a self-proclaimed Prophet of God and l speak with you my phone and computer codes and..
Sorry it doesn’t make perfect sense. I am on to something though.
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No I don’t believe in any god’s, or anything higher, I’m a science freak so I believe in science. Haha I can’t help you with that one.
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Ok, Science and God are One. You Will soon see. God bless you anyway, believe or not. You have a lovely night!
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I don’t agree there but I don’t believe , night? It’s 7.15am here, we’re you based?
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What is based?
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From,where are you from x
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I am from Harpers Ferry, WV. Where are you from Again?
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Is that America? And England here x
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You are from England? You are very gifted and gorgeous! I wish you weren’t so far away. Will you be my princess, we can run the Kingdom together!
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Haha I’m not a princess, and thank you, oh my books ready to pre order , I’ll be adding a blog feed this week when it’s available, but I have added in your poem, with a dedication line, https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/1541193334
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It’s been a while since we talked, but I pray everything is going well with you. You are very special and gifted. Learn to distinguish between the two voices in your head… I am willing to help you if you want. Just let me know by email… zboy600@gmail.com or phone 3049953345. You can call or text me.
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I hope you get this message in the name of Jesus Christ.
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It is 10:17 here… I am assuming it is 3:20 or so there. Ttyl precious one. You are blessed and highly favored of the Lord. How can I convince you of this? Hopefully you will receive this revelation.
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There is apparently a bundle to realize about this.
I suppose you made some nice points in features also. http://Bloggingspaces.com/monitor-11-killed-in-blasts-inside-syria-weapons-warehouse-6/
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Thank you xx
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