Tag Archives: fear
#life
I am not afraid to die, I am afraid to live. K
The labyrinth
I close my eyes & I begin to dream Only to be awoken by echoing screams, A maze of paths & endless patterns “Holy fuck” how did this happen? I drift around there’s no way out Barely can see I … Continue reading
Lost
I’m afraid I’m lost I’m unable to write, My hope is drifting Out of sight. Hours wasted But who am I? I’m sinking deeper When I want to fly. I am rather lost Not in wonderland, In a frame of … Continue reading
Ghostly whisper
I’m not afraid to fall Pieces of me fall all the time. It’s pieces of insanity that remains, So insane it beautifully aches. I gave up looking for a happy ending, Now I pass the time until the end. I’m … Continue reading
Find me before you..
Before I find you I’ll need to find me, So when we meet My heart can be free. Instead of searching for love I’m climbing my wall, It keeps me from loving So I’m not able to fall. I’ll be … Continue reading
Carnival…
Heads a fucking carnival Its partying to loud, It’s rather hysterical. Starting out slow This shit became a ritual. Sorry dear but i’m not normal Just one fucked up individual, Don’t waste your time on me I’m too complex For … Continue reading
Behind closed doors…
Broken glass Scatters Across the wall, Unable to fight You fall to the floor. Tears flood Anger burns, Pain in the heart As the stomach churns. It’s a moment of weakness Or a moment of madness, No other would comprehend, … Continue reading
The final chapter…
If the world was ending, Would you be there? I’d be standing on a roof, Shooting a flare. Would you race by my side To wipe away the tears, Holding me in your arms As we faced our final fears. … Continue reading
There’s no inbetween..
I can give And I can take, I’ll fight but I also break. I’ll love Sometimes i’ll hate, I’ll be your enemy Or your mate. I can lose a battle But win the war, I’ll be a good girl Or … Continue reading
The aftermath..
Breathe light into this world Filled with black & white, Where the vivid colours hide Within the cracks of a divide. Slowly dissolving out of sight It’s no longer vibrant, Colours refuse to talk It’s completely silent. We destroyed the … Continue reading
Existence…
To be free, Independence Became the key. Leaving behind Those evil beings, That haunt my mind. Memories boxed Deep inside, The Pain’s hidden It’s masked by pride. Hitting every low, Witnessing dreams, Fly out the window. Being told I’d amount … Continue reading
Moments..
Memories flow Upon waves, Feeling you in the air, Is what, My body Craves. Needing you here To Caress my skin, I can almost feel Butterflies Dance within. I’ll pull you close As our eyes meet, Kiss those lips, And … Continue reading
Hourglass…
The dust may settle, But you do not, Pieces of you Are lost, Pieces you forgot. You’re the mistress Of your fate, Chain that master up You’ll dominate. Heaven & hell, Are deep inside, Tormenting each other Until they collide. … Continue reading
Thought of the day..
That moment at night when you’re sat in the darkness, and your mind starts over analysing all the things you regretted to do and all the things you should do, and you’re sat thinking to yourself, I really should buy … Continue reading
Haunted….
The monster you dread Worst of nightmares, A figure hiding Under your bed. It’s the storm within The hurricane outside, It’s the fear shivering Under your skin. Playing games When it’s dark, Leaving panic Is its Mark, The shadows creep … Continue reading
Worst day ever…
My imaginary friend, Stole my Unicorn, My pet Phoenix, Turned to Flames, The voices in my Head, Are ignoring me, & the boogeyman Is partying, With the Monster, Under My bed. The mad Hatter, Lost my key, And Neverland Has … Continue reading
Words..
Words are the Firing line, 1,2,3 Anger scatters Along the Skyline. Bridges burn, As the tide Begins to Turn. Bolts of Lightening Separates hearts As the road Splits, And the journey Starts. Horizon is bleak, Left standing, Unable To speak. … Continue reading
Rage…
In the middle of darkness, An army raged, Spreading the ashes, Along the page. A heart ruptured, Bursting into light, With the Blood being written, From the fire Of the night. K
Radioactive..
I’m awake Feeling alive, Losing control, I’ll no longer survive, The wild girl is here, Free to roam, It’s a girl you Should fear, Not a place To call home. Don’t stop me In my tracks. I’m consuming the Madness, … Continue reading
It Just take’s one
A single hug, Could hold all The answers, A single kiss, Could open doors, A person’s arms Could change Your perspective, One single heart Could change Your world. K
Complex life…
I’ve spent My whole life, Not finding A way in, But finding A way out, Living in silence Forgetting How to shout. Looking for Answers Without Any meaning, Giving responses Without any Feeling. Losing myself Within a crowd, The voices … Continue reading
You!!!
You created, a life of grief, Just to find, some release, Turning two good Souls, into ice, Because of your venom, They’ll pay the price. A constant battle, You created, You should have been, fucking Sedated, Two young girls ,You … Continue reading
That little girl…
Remember her, That little girl, Unable to stand From a fall, fragile And weak, Falling apart No voice to Speak. Wearing a smile, Not by choice, Her deafening silence Became her Voice. Damage consumed The little girl, It’s all she’d … Continue reading
Long week…
It’s been a long week Muscles ache, Words are dragging As I try to Speak. Sat here I should be celebrating, But I’m drinking Away the blues, Whilst the room is Fucking Rotating. Who to tell? Who would care? I … Continue reading
Learning the basics..
I’ll learn how to love And not just the feeling, To give it all back With every inch Of my being. I’ll learn how the problem Can be the solution, To decrypt the mind Of it’s confusion. I’ll learn how … Continue reading
Never afraid…
I’m not afraid To shout, I’m not afraid To sing, I was never Afraid of Yesterday, Or what Tomorrow Will bring. I’m not afraid To dream, I’m not afraid To fail, I was never Afraid to Write, The darkest Fairytale. … Continue reading
Key..
The key to life A mystery to discover, But the key for change Is real It’s Inside you To recover. Stuck in this world Searching for Meaning, When all we need Is inner healing. Pieces fall into place, For now … Continue reading
Silence can be deafening…
Sometimes the Voices In her head, Become deafening. She’ll doubt Herself Worry others Are listening. She’ll try to Block The endless darkness, But then the Darkness Turns into a deadly Silence, And then she Prays For a miracle For guidance. … Continue reading
Hollow Reality…
Can you imagine An empty room, Walls are closing in There’s an eerie whisper, Sanity you’re chasing, Drifting in and out Of dreams, Yet nothing’s clear Nothing’s vibrant, A room filled of pain Filled of sorrow But completely silent. Walls … Continue reading
Abyss..
Perceived as cold Eyes are grey, Surrounded by Burning walls Which scold. Misinterpretation They will never see, I’m lost in a forever Changing storm, To remain Controlled. Edges are rough A broken image, By a heart That’s forged from Steel … Continue reading
The homeless girl..
There was once No place to call Home, Dreaming of finishing the day In a bed of my own. But days were bleak Lodging on friend’s sofas, Working 70 hours a week. Unable to speak the truth My family left … Continue reading
Keeping grip..
To feel another close Is all i ask, Knocking my walls down Becomes a task. Resorting back To what i know, pushing another away Instead of letting go. When all i crave Is to feel you inside, The friction of … Continue reading
Tears fall.
Teardrops begin to fall, Down her cheek, No-one to see her, Vulnerable & weak, Can you trace her story, Back to start, And find the moment, She lost her heart, Scars run deeper, Than any ocean, Suppressing the tide, In … Continue reading
Endurance..
Asking you to hold me But you pulled away, Asking you not to hurt me But you did anyway. Never a response or a reason, You left me here, Bruised & beaten. Voice’s of demons Screamed inside, My heart it … Continue reading
I’m not perfect…
My writing has taken A different theme, Lots of criticism So it seems. Comments & mail For poor wording, Grammar, & punctuation fails. This is an issue I’m going to address, I never write to please This is the way, … Continue reading
Fiesty..
Never mistake her, for being weak, From the kindness said, when she speaks, If you cross her, you’ll forget that side, She’s a fiesty lady, & you’ll only collide. Seeing her as vulnerable, would be wrong, Get to know her, … Continue reading
A mind at war..
The therapist said, “you have a powerful mind” Answers I need, he’s attempting to find, Asking me to connect, down to the core, Finding out what’s hidden, behind this door, Different scenarios, to see if I can feel, About the … Continue reading
Strange little mind…
Shying away, when life gets too much, It’s the solitude, that I always clutch, Overwhelmed, by social invention, So I run away, never my intention, Always analysing, leaving me frustrated, Overactive mind, it’s very complicated, It’s hard to explain, & … Continue reading
Overactive imagination..
I’m a shadow bending, like a whisper, Through the rain, can you see me shimmer? A lost paper heart, set on fire, Burning higher & higher, with desire, I’m like speeding car, with no brakes, Or a broken mirror, full … Continue reading
Confliction…
Wings of an angel, fire of the devil, Halo above, force so fearful, Light in the heart, darkness in the eyes, Unpredictable, & full of surprise, An innocent smile, or devilish grin, Mind of prayers, or dark sins, Lust so … Continue reading
Let me in…
What’s your name, open your heart? what’s in your head, ripping you apart? Tell me you secrets, & your lies, Let me see, behind your eyes, Open up to me, let me in, Don’t be afraid, we all have sins, … Continue reading
Twisted path
Forever changing, twisted roads, Carrying baggage, trying to unload, Paths going, in different directions, Hundreds of miles, searching for connection, Long journey, to leave it all behind, Fresh air, to clear my mind, Walking through the light & the dark, … Continue reading
One way ticket…
I want to see the world,through your eyes, Feel all the sadness, & every high, Sail around the world, in your arms, Remember the feeling, of being safe from harm, I want to find the key, to this life, Be … Continue reading
Different views..
Unable to believe the stuff, people talk about, My ears bleed, hearing the shit that comes out, Do some not hear, the things they say, Is this what natural selection, is today, Materialistic, and selfish greed, I pray that some … Continue reading
Distorted..
I’ve already seen it, seen it coming, It’s happening one day, I can’t keep running, Seeing the future, & what it holds Something I can’t change, or control. Lying to myself, but I know the facts, Born with sharp edges, … Continue reading
My translator…
Words, have a strong meaning, More than letters, more of a feeling, Poetry is my voice, of what I’m unable to say, Like an art exhibition, with my life on display. Rhyming maybe, insignificant for others, But it’s self therapy, … Continue reading
Life chapters…
Playing parts, in your own story, Reaching the top, to hit the glory, Unwritten words, with pages turning Making mistakes, but always learning. Your not giving up, & your not giving in, We’re the competitors, here to win, Ink to … Continue reading
Unknown…
We’re just like, grains of sand, Living on this unknown land, Just a dot, in time and space, Alien world, we have come to face, Asking questions, but getting no answer, Where is the cure, for the cancer? Which god … Continue reading
Jigsaw of life.
Pieces of a jigsaw, lost to be found, Fixing the edges, & tracing the background, But what’s missing, from the core, Do we even know, what we’re searching for? Digging for the solution, everyday, And pray more of the puzzle, … Continue reading
Nightmare…
Darkness awaits, feeling it near, Shadows are close, whispering in my ear, Shivers rising, beneath the skin, Something is coming, I feel it within, Echos rise, but barely make a sound, Earth is shaking, & the heart it pounds, Walls … Continue reading
Living on another plane…
Feeling toxic, to my dismay, Being friendly, but emotions I can’t convey, Not realising, the effect I have, Frustrating myself, making others mad. Connection barrier, between me & the universe, The masks I wear, are usually diverse. You won’t see … Continue reading
Justice..
I get very angry & very mad World of corruption makes me sad, Murderers, terrorists & crimes Go unpunished in our times. I say this with a frown Justice is letting victims down, What’s remains for families left behind I … Continue reading
No longer caged…
The heart is broken & starts to swell I’m no longer captured under your spell Picking up pieces of my heart, The one you stole & torn apart. Blocking memories held so dear All that remains is hatred here, Unconditional … Continue reading
Stand tall…
Didn’t know myself like I do today I had to get lost to find my way. Fearing the darkness & fearing the light, Getting knocked to learn how to fight. Opportunities I missed due to the pain Clawing them back … Continue reading
Storms we create…
Fearing storms, That don’t go away, Turning bluest skies To the darkest grey. Oxygen poisoned, From toxic lies, Blizzards covering, Clouded eyes. Fires burning From heat of rage, Melting walls Around the cage. Lightning strikes From the thunder, Destroying bridges, … Continue reading
Questions of the heart….
My heart aches, my heart aches for you, Are you out there? Please give me a clue, Do you feel the same, do you wish to be complete? By an distant stranger, to whisk you of your feet, Have we … Continue reading
The Darkest Fairytale
Ripping the wings of dragons, And tearing the arms of men; She devours of them their bloody sin, She does what she could As she impales that little red riding hood; Let her vampire fangs thirst; Yo… Source: The Darkest … Continue reading
Observation is more than meets the eyes..
We’re only as strong, as the masks we maintain, They become transparent, when we’re feeling the strain, Searching for a loving heart, to lead us the way, Or a friendly smile, to get us through the day. Regardless of your … Continue reading
I’m right here…
I’m always going to hold you, when your sky falls down, To wash away your sadness, and turn away your frown, Your problems are with you, but so am I, Witnessing your pain, and all the tears you cry, Don’t … Continue reading
Rise above..
She’s faced death She’s faced fear, She’s lives with this Year to year. She won’t run She won’t hide, Battling her sorrows She wears her pride. She leaves her demons, At every door, This is what She’s fighting for. Her … Continue reading
Two different worlds…
To let my guard down, to give into temptation, It starts with conversation and a bit of flirtation, But what is this chemistry that people feel, Is it a delusion, is it even real? It’s harder than it seems, trying … Continue reading
My own threat.
Unable to feed the hunger, it’s unbearable, The more It’s repressed, the more It’s unstable, But what am I feeding, do I ask? What is hiding, under this mask. Seven deadly sins, I would happily take, To fill this inescapable … Continue reading
Lights out.
What to do, when I can not sleep? Slumber in frustration or count the sheep, An explosive mind, ticking into overdrive, Like a nuclear bomb, coming alive. Seeking comfort in the dark of the night, Peace of stars, the calm … Continue reading
The covert
Unaware of how to express, The Deep void of emptiness I repress, Drifting through space and time, Just another wall to get up and climb. I sit and hide behind a disguise, Like the Cloud’s masking the skies, Observing people … Continue reading
My heaven
Just because I am alone Does not mean I am lonely My solitude is my heaven K
Be my anchor
If you need me, I’ll be hiding in the dark corners of my mind. If you want me, find me and bring me back. I will always see the light within the darkness. But I will also see the shadows … Continue reading
Write regardless..
Motivation needed to write & rhyme, My words appear in the darkest of times, A writer’s block i choose to ignore, Expressed for you to mock & claw. Words crawl up from the grave, Feeding the darkness, I became it’s … Continue reading
My hell of a fairytale
We have been punched, beaten and broken to the core, Fourteen years of this, we had to endure, Life of fear and standing on egg shells Being homeless and living in hostels. The worst part is the mental torture, why … Continue reading
